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So, here I am procrastinating again. Sure, I’m ahead on my word count overall, but I worry I will fall behind at some point. Must keep up the momentum ~ and cook ~ and do laundry ~ and everything else.
I wrote this in one of the first days [if not the first day] of NaNoWriMo and thought it decent enough to share here. Enjoy!
“When I was younger I used to wonder if my life were just a dream. If one day I would wake up and find I was still just a baby lying in a playpen at my grandmother’s house. Do people really have thoughts like this or is it just me? Not that I wish neuroses on others. Yet it would be nice to know I wasn’t the only one with these randomly odd thoughts.”
“I don’t know about thinking your life is a dream, but why would you think you were the only one with odd thoughts? What about all of the people seeing therapists?”
“Yeah, but do ‘normal’ people have these kinds of thoughts? I mean, do people look at themselves in a mirror and see the edges of a mask even when there is no mask? Does that make me crazy? Or maybe that is too vague. Does that make me a little crazy or a lot crazy? Or is it somewhere in the middle? Or maybe not at all.”
“I’m not sure I would go around telling people these things.”
“So, you think it’s weird.”
“Yeah, but I think you’re fairly normal. You’re friends with me, after all.”
I shake my head. Maybe he’s right. I can’t be the only one having strange thoughts. It’s not as if everyone knows I’m having them. And just because I don’t know they’re having them doesn’t mean they aren’t, right? I needed to stop worrying about all of this and get back to work. It’s not like I’m paid to have really deep thoughts. Maybe that is what I am missing. I need a job that allows me to have really deep thoughts. Pondering the questions of the universe. What is the meaning of life? What is my purpose? Or yours? How does Snuggle get my clothes feeling oh so soft? Hey, inquiring minds want to know.
Nice story, and hope to read more! Goodluck to your NaNoWriMo novel!
btw, this post made me think to continue writing novels!
Twitter: AnneOnline
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I’m not sure what surprises me more, that I have written over 16,000 words in some semblance of order or that they are not all crap! =)
Thank you for the kind words.
Twitter: HeatherKephart
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That’s great, Anne! Particularly touching you thinking about waking up in your grandmother’s playpen, nice imagery.
You must assuredly are not the only one having these thoughts. I don’t suppose you’ve heard of The Matrix?
Perhaps you should be writing diary-style science fiction.
Twitter: AnneOnline
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That’s a thought, diary-style sci-fi. I like it! I do tend to get lost in my thoughts. By the way, those thoughts are truly mine.
When I was young, maybe 10 [it gets harder to remember the older I get] I used to wonder if I was just dreaming this life and one day I would wake up just a baby in the playpen at my grandmother’s house in West Palm Beach. My parents and brother finally back from their trip to Disney World. I would wonder if this was a preview of how things might be and there was still a chance to change them.
Twitter: HeatherKephart
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Oh, I have no doubt these thoughts are truly yours, Anne! I just wanted to let you know that you weren’t a freak, or crazy, or alone.
It could very well be a preview. It’s all a big mystery. I do think it would be fun for you to focus on that in a novel, if you aren’t already.
Twitter: AnneOnline
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=) I’m glad I’m not a freak or alone. I finally figured it all out. What I really am ~ is a writer! This is how we think and who we are. This is where we find our characters and their quirks. If it wasn’t for all these seemingly random and almost definitely odd thoughts books would be filled with words and no life and meant only for the academic. That is not a world I want to live in!
ps. I almost never take offense to anything said and apparently have become one of those people who is constantly laughing. Could this mean that I have finally found my happiness? My heart be still!
The deep side of Anne. Very nice. I was thinking whether I’d use the first person of the third person to narrate my story, I ended up doing it in the third person.
Good luck to all of us, I am way behind my word count, roughly 16k on Day 17. Yikes! I need to catch up.
Like Heather, I agree that the imagery is superb and something that is a bit more interesting. Keep on writing and by the end of the month, we’ll all be able to finish our 50k mark.
Z
Twitter: AnneOnline
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Thank you. I am writing in the first person, but realized yesterday that some parts were written in third person. Guess that is what editing is for. =)
I have faith that you will get there. This is a great way to explore what we are capable of doing in a very concentrated way. It takes authors months [and new authors years] to write a story, so our month-long cram session is a good way to dive in head first and see if we resurface. I have faith in all of us.